pain pain pain..

well, it's almost two in the morning and again i can't sleep just like yesterday.. for two days two nights now my stomach has been killing me causing me unable to sleep.. i don't remember doing anything that would cause my stomach to be in pain but it is and i can't sleep because of this.. how i wish the pain would disappear.. now i've to hope that i can fall asleep, just like last night which means i won't be a dead log till 3 something.. sigh.. stupid pain..

i'm looking forward to the weekends.. going back to sri aman.. gonna get to see my grandparents.. probably the last time i'll get to see them before i leave.. unless my parents would take me back during chinese new year.. or christmas for that matter.. lol..

oh and i got screwed by my mum this evening.. told her that when i go off to study, if there's a slot available for the course actuary science, i'll switch to that.. then she fired me and say you've chosen tourism so just stick to it.. don't switch here switch there.. lol.. i don't even know why i wanna switch.. must be because i guess actuary science would be more challenging with the statistics and all.. haha..

sometimes i do wonder.. wonder wonder wonder.. what is running through the mind... wonder wonder wonder..

nyah this pain is a killer.. i hope i get better when i wake up.. should pray for that.. ignored ignored ignored and act as if it's fine..

and next week, bad week.. considering that fat sister of mine would be taking the car away for a camp that she didn't have to get her nosy butt into.. i would love to throw stuffs at her really.. but i had a change of heart after mummy called her fat and and says 'aren't you fat enough??' today.. NGAHAHA!! good job mum..

gosh, can't wait for the weekend really.. good place to be taking a walk.. really would help to clear some things off the mind.. change in scenery usually helps.. so ya, can't wait for it..

screw this pain, it's getting worse.. though i hope that indicates i'll be better tomorrow.. i hope for the better, not the worst.. lol..

time time time..

and God, i need an answer.. and damn, i'm not going to church since i'll be in sri aman.. so i guess it's another week's worth of wait for that answer then.. sigh.. maybe if i pray twice as hard here compared to in church i can get one answer now?? lol..

that's enough crap from me i guess.. i'm gonna try to sleep now.. hope i can..

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