a walk to remember

it's 1 in the morning and i just finished watching one movie.. a good one, to me.. was an old one titled -A walk to remember-.. guess there are lots of things that i picked up from the movie.. but the main thing was how positive that girl was though she was gonna die..

she didn't looked at life differently.. she embraced the fact and lived her life to the fullest.. now i know it's just a movie, but if everyone is like her, then i'm sure the world would be a better place.. she continued as if she wasn't sick and never complained or told anyone about her sickness (she had leukemia) now some may think it's not easy to do that in the real life.. actually, it is easy.. only if one have faith..

faith.. another thing that i picked up from the movie.. the girl actually moved the guy, who never believed in faith, with her faith in God.. she has so much faith in God that she was never angry at God for her sickness (minus when she started dating the guy, though it was never specified if she was angry) probably it's her faith that made her positive..

one that really hits me was when she was lying on the hospital bed.. she said something about how she realised that this is how God has planned this journey for her (she was saying it positively) made me think, what's God plans for me?? (i hope it isn't lying on the hospital bed with leukemia)

i never really bothered about what His plans are to be honest.. i just live day by the day.. but now i wonder.. i know it's not possible to change what He has planned.. everything has been set out for me.. it just depends on how i get there.. i really wonder what lies at the end of the path that he has set out for me.. and i can't really make out the hints that He might have dropped off..

touching on my life, don't know what i'll end up doing with it.. i'll be re-starting my university life again in about a month or so.. i'll be taking tourism, something that may or may not be right for me, considering my brain capabilities.. people are telling me i should be doing medicine or engineering.. oh well, i guess i'll find out in the end whether it's the right thing to do.. i used to play tennis and was not bad at it.. up till now, i don't know whether i made the right decision to stop playing.. come to think of it, there are many decisions that i made that makes me wonder.. was it all part of God's plan for me, all these decisions i've made?? i really am curious to know right now.. though the only way i can find out is to continue walking till the end..

speaking of walk, i'll be off soon for a new chapter in my life.. and before i leave, i'd really love to take a walk, a walk to remember....

-love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and it is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truths. it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes-