bad day 2..

well well... was bad enough i didn't do that good in my exam.. did something else which i so totally regret.. feeling so bad i can't even look at myself in the mirror (no kidding).. how could i do such a thing??

all because of my habit of keeping things to myself.. not that i don't want to share, i'd love to share.. if only you were to know what's running inside.. but i just can't bug you with more things.. you have more than enough on your plate.. but it's because of this mentality i made you cry.. a you shedding tears make me feel bad, but a you shedding tears because of me?? how i wish someone would just take a gun and shoot me dead.. you mean a lot to me, you really do.. i don't care if you don't believe what i say but yes, you really mean a lot to me.. but what did i do?? i made you cry..

i'm a baddie baddie for all this.. if i'd known it's this bad i would've share.. funny how sharing is not something hard to do but i just can't do it.. sometimes i feel as if i'm taking you for granted and i don't deserve you.. i'm sure others wouldn't make you shed tears for not sharing.. if only i can turn back time, for sure i would want to prevent you from shedding tears.. but what's done is done and though you say you're fine, i'm still feeling bad over it..

and now i'll share.. i'm not fine now because of this.. and i can assure you you can't expect me to be.. all i ever wanted to do when i asked you out was to make you happy.. but end up i'm not doing a good job and at the same time making you cry.. so sorry..

i am now counting down to sunday because on that night, that's the night that you'll probably finally understand me and how i really feel about you and how i wanna make things different for you..