sorry God

sunday sunday sunday.. a day of rest and to do God's work.. i completed the former but the latter?? didn't even do a single thing about it.. rest was sufficient.. slept til ten something in the morning.. and after that should've spent some time to try and do God's work but guess what, i didn't.. am i suppose to feel bad over it??

now there are 2 ways to look at it.. some will say 'ya you should feel bad over it..' and some wil say 'it's fine.. God won't be mad over it'.. now there are ways to look at the 2 different answers that was given.. those who say i should, did they themselves did God's work on sunday?? or are they just filthy hypocrites?? the 2nd answer, how would they know God won't be angry?? but i'm sure they're right though.. God wouldn't get angry over this.. if he would then in the first place he wouldn't send Jesus to save us.. And i quote: For God so loved the world He gave his only Son Jesus Christ to save us..

probably i shouldn't feel bad but i think i should and i am.. reason being is because He has helped me out so much.. I was born with no physical disabilities, raised in a complete family, given some talent in sports (tennis-played for state till i got bored after form 3) given a slightly above average brain (straight A's student in all public exams) able to enjoy life (clubs and all sort of nonsense), saved from the negative activities like smoking.. sure they were some problems such as when my parents almost divorced due to my dad's financial trouble back when i was in form 2 (lasted till beginning of form 4).. but the fact stands that He has given me more good things in life than bad.. sure i did help out in a few church activities when i was super active in YCS back in form 4 and 5 but now, nadaa.. zero contribution.. the only contribution i give is being present during mass once a week and when donating during collection.. which i'm sure is nothing compared to what He has done for me..

considering all the above, i realise i should change.. it's about time to kickstart and regenerate the Christian life.. and the first step i shall take would be to read the bible(something i have never done for the past 18 years of my 18 years of life) during the upcoming semester break.. from there i shall see where i can move on to next.. sorry God for the delay..